Constant Conflicts - Hotel Books

Constant Conflicts - Hotel Books
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I spent too much time erasing not enough time changing
我耗费太多时间抹去痕迹 却鲜少真正改变自己
Blurring the lines between sick and selfish
在病态与自私间模糊了界限
Hoping I can grab on for just a second
奢望能短暂抓住些什么
But I've learned to take what I can get
如今学会接受能得到的碎片
And use the parts that makes sense
拼凑其中尚存理性的部分
And relent only when I meet my own death
唯有濒临绝境时才肯妥协
And find a pace I can circumvent
寻找能迂回前行的节奏
When was truth less about proving a point and just proving someone wrong
何时真相不再关乎争辩输赢 而只是否定他人
All along I'll rest my aching joints to my own broken hope and swan song
我将疲惫的身躯 安放在破碎的希望与绝唱中
But maybe I'm over worked
或许是我太过逞强
Because I like breaking the healing process as a comfort when I'm aching
总在伤痛时 把愈合过程当作止痛的良方
With this new perspective I'm finally taking
如今终于学会 用新的眼光凝望
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
自己种下的苦果 我甘愿独自品尝
The comfort of your
你曾给予的温柔
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
自己种下的苦果 我甘愿独自品尝
Even if to a bed of nails
纵使下面是钉床
Death is not a choice and love should not be either
死亡无法选择 爱亦不该被迫
I'll endure the pain if our hearts endure the weather
若心能经风雨 我愿承受这痛楚
The only pain worse than killing with force is killing with neglect I guess
最痛莫过于 用冷漠将爱扼杀
And now I know that our love was completely dead
如今才明白 我们的爱早已逝去
I will complicate this love just to feel something
宁愿将爱复杂化 只为感受存在
And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
若真相因此模糊 我深感歉意
The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that
当我心跳的节奏 在瞬间改变
I realized you are not coming back
只因意识到 你不再归来
I will complicate this love just to feel something
宁愿将爱复杂化 只为感受存在
And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
若真相因此模糊 我深感歉意
The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that
当我心跳的节奏 在瞬间改变
I conceptualize the words I masked
我听见心跳的节拍骤然改变
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
自己种下的苦果 我甘愿独自品尝
The comfort of your
你曾给予的温柔
I will give up all I have just to go back home
我愿放弃所有 只为回到最初
I hope you know I hate being alone
但愿你明白 我多憎恶这孤独
You used to make my mind clear
你曾是我心灵的明灯
Now your absence does instead
如今你的缺席却让我清醒
I heard your dog barking in the backyard
听见你家后院犬吠声声
He only does that when you're home
那声音只在你归家时响起
And I just hope you understand
只愿你能明白
I never meant to grow apart
我从未想过让感情疏离
But I know at some point I had to grow
但成长终究无法逃避
I guess I could've picked a better time to learn patience
或许我该选个更好的时机学会等待
But now I'm learning that I am becoming the one who broke my heart
如今才明白 我正变成那个伤透我心的人
I was a creature of habit but with no real intentions
我曾是习惯的囚徒 却从未真正用心
I conformed to what I understood to be happiness
将自以为的幸福 当作生活的模板
Or undiagnosed telf medicated approach to getting lost in each other's contemptment
或是用未察觉的逃避 沉溺在彼此的怨怼里
Lead to a misconception of your beauty
最终误解了你的美好
I still can't believe that I lied to you
仍不敢相信 我竟欺骗了你
Especially because when I said it I thought I was telling the truth
最痛的是 说谎时还以为字字真心
I thought I was strong enough to carry you but now my mind is clear
曾以为能背负你前行 如今才看清自己
And I hope you hear this
愿你听见我的心声
I love you
我爱你