Even The Dead Have Their Tasks - Being As An Ocean

We pack up our gear
And we're gone again
Driven by passion
Outward
Away from family and friends
But what they can't see
Is that every day I'm drowning in a sea
Of faces that I miss so desperately
With each flashing countenance
A torrent of emotion
Joy
And memories
The people I've grown to love so deeply
Throughout the years
I've chosen a big family
And the weight of their absence
Has brought me more than once to tears
I wake from sleep violently
Only to witness those lives and faces
Disappear slowly behind me
I'm drowning
Again I'm pulled back into deep waters
Washed further away from my sisters and brothers
Am I truly living a dream
When the only time I spend with you is in my sleep
How am I to stay the course
To remain bold
When all those my heart longs for
Remain firmly anchored at home
Am I truly living a dream
When the only time I spend with you is in my sleep
With every it's been awhile embrace
I wish it could last an eternity
Silently praying for the courage to say
Oh g d
How I've missed you
I've seen you in my sleep
We were laughing
Crying
Joking
You know
The way it used to be
Back when we younger and all that much more free
I just hope you see that nothing's changed between you and me
No matter the time we've spent apart
I know it's not always easy to show it
But please believe that I carried you in my heart
That you were with me through every mile
I could have sworn I saw your phantom standing in the aisle
It seems you already know what I'm thinking
And that
Even after all this time
Some things still do go without saying
We savored the taste of our sweet youth
And now
With calloused hands
Gather the remaining fruit
To go any farther
We must endure further pains
Skinned
Mashed
And finally strained
Fermenting in the time spent away
Only to return with a fine vintage
To cheers to the health of those who stayed