Fading Memories - Famous Last Words

Cook it up just to numb the pain
Pull the belt in a search to find my last vein
Like a felon in for life I'm wasting away
It's the only thing in life that keeps my mind sane
But was it worth the consequences
It numbs the hurt it numbs the pain
Cause in the end I lost a friend who died in vain
I could never get enough to heal the pain
It all went wrong he was left defenseless
He should not have died it should be me
But now I see that if I believed in something
We'd be alive but now we're nothing
But it made me feel
It set me free
It cloaked the pain that tortured me
It made me blind I couldn't see
The only one to blame was me
It was my selfish lies that caused the end of his life
And now he's gone and so are we
We're all just fading memories
Destined to fail
Sink back as the d**gs take way
Through my veins I feel my life begin to fade
What's done is done and it ain't ever gonna change
It's the only thing in life that keeps me sane
My skin turns pale as the d**gs destroy my soul within
It's poison complete bittersweet defeat I'll never win
I'll give in let go of the life I wish I never began
This man is sick so I ask myself well what if I believed in something
We'd be alive but now we're nothing
Destined to fail
I'm falling faster Gaining speed to a fate I can't believe
I'm a disaster A one way ticket to hell made just for me
I'm sorry mother I'm not the man that you thought that I would be
Now it's all over Hell's awaiting me