Lilium Cruentus (Deus Nova) - Pain of Salvation

Lilium Cruentus - Pain of Salvation
At first I don't know why your presence fills me with unease
Though I've missed you more than life itself
I freeze
It's like you've been lost and now you're glad to see my face
But as you sit down my confusion turns to distress
Not knowing how to let you know that you are
Dead
I wake up sweating
They tell me you are better off
Where you are now
Well I don't care
They tell me that your pain is gone
Where you are now
Well you left it here
See I need to be strong
I need to be brave
I need to put faith in something
How could I live on
Not hoping we will meet
Again
Under the icon's weight the old thoughts lay
Under the cross so still and pale
The flowers usher the stale breath of death away
And someone tries to sing
But the bird of song has lost it's wings
Now it twitches
Rips the stitches of a chest where tears are torn
And where all loss begins
Life seems too small when death takes it's toll
I need something to blame for this pain
And have you ever had that dream
Where one you love passes away
And you wake up crying to a world
Where she's long since gone
But you feel the pain
So close
As if she'd died today
But I need to be strong
I need to be brave
I need to put faith in something
How could I live on
Not hoping we will meet
Again
Some day
Earth to earth dust to dust
A verse we know too well
Like a nursery rhyme
Just in reverse
Cause we are all the little tin man
With hearts like little tin cans
And as we line them down with tears
Over the years
They inevitably turn
To rust
Life seems too small when death takes it's toll
I need something to blame for this pain
I try I fail I fall like anyone you know
I break I bleed like anyone you know
Where the linen's changed just for tonight
And somehow we beat her to this sight
This ghostly room of exit
That she enters by the flicker of candle light
And in her breast
A desert storm is taking form
An old thirst that can never be quenched or killed
Sweeps over the cold
Broken but thousandfold
My love