Matthias Replaces Judas - Showbread

It is so that my transgressions
Have born a withered fruit
The sun has scorched the rising plans
Alas they have no root
The bleached bones of animals bound
By leather strips
Dance through the air with laughter
As I wield this wicked whip
As you did warn me carpenter
This world has weakened my heart
So easily I disparage
Self seeking the work of my art
And there you have come to me
At the moment I bathe in my sorrow
So in love with myself
Sought after avoiding tomorrow
Where do you find the love to offer he
Who betrays you
And offer to wash my feet
As I offer to disobey you
Your beauty does bereave me
And how my words do fail
So faithfully and dutifully
I award you with betrayal
The weak and the down trodden
Fall on broken legs
As I walk past a smile I cast
Fervor in my stead
But my bones like plastic
Do buckle backward now
I lay in this field by Judas'
Anticipate the plow
I cannot be forgiven,
My wages will be paid
For those more lovely
And admirable is least among the saved
And where would I fit Jesus
What place is left for me
The price of atonement is more
Than I've found to offer up as my plea
Jesus my heart is all I have to give to you
So weak and so unworthy
This simply will not do no alabaster jar
No diamond in the rough
For your body that was broken
How can this be enough
By me you were abandoned
By me you were betrayed
Yet in your arms and in your heart
Forever I have stayed
Your glory illuminates my life
And no darkness will descend
For you have lived forever
And your love will never end