The Worry List - Blue October

I'm tired twisted barely breathing
Buried in the dark I'm creeping
Don't be concerned it's just the power of a breaking heart
How good am I hiding it look I've got some bad intentions
Guilty as f**king charged
Still standing stable more than able
Cause I know who you are
I know the birthdays anniversaries all the first days I missed
I regret them all
But now I know this:
I know that God exists I held her in my arms
I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong
Take me off your worry list it'll be better that way
I'm really fine and there's nothing we haven't talked about
So take me off your worry list I said "Throw it away "
This is what my life is about
I might have been gone but I never walked out
I've taken a thousand red eyes to change your point of view
What kind of man would take the trust you break and still follow through
'Cause I'm standin' right here
And you may not show up
This same gate 14 where honestly I'm just sick of calling your bluff
And it's just embarrassing that I nearly threw up
Well I'm trying hard to change the things I always screw up
And at the top of my list this visitation's no relationship
But I gotta make the best of it
'Cause I know -
I know that God exists I held her in my arms
I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong
Take me off your worry list it'll be better that way
And I'm doin' fine and I've got plenty of friends around
Take me off your worry list just throw it away
Well it's time to stand up on my own for her
'Cause I'm packing it up and I'm comin' today
I couldn't wait to finally pick my family up
Everything is quiet and covered in snow
There's something wrong here
Nobody's at home
Oh no no no no no no no
Now I'm back in the driver's seat
Heading back home
Yeah back to Texas on my own
Take me off your worry list it'll be better that way
And I'm doin' fine and I've got plenty of friends around
Take me off your worry list just throw it away
Yeah it's time to stand up on my own for her
I'm packing it up and I'm comin' today
This is what my story's about
I might have been gone but I never walked out
I'm packin' it up and I'm comin' today
This is what your story's about
My pretty little girl can you figure it out
If it helps to know so there is no doubt
Just listen to the stories not everything is glorious
Some hurt some love some shout
I fought the world and I lost that bout
And you are what my album's about
I might have been gone but I never walked out