Tears in Rain(Explicit) - jehst

Tears in Rain (Explicit) - jehst
Let me pour out my bleeding heart
It was all f**ked up from the start
I was just tryna play my part
And they say it ain't the winning that counts
It's the taking part
But when you lose maintaining hard
And if you choose to complain they laugh
At your pain so you pick up the pad
Put the needle to the vein
It's the same old same
I've seen it all before
And I'm sure that I'll see it again
Strange Days
When people act in strange ways
And end up locked in strange ways
For the way they behave
The sky is always a shade of grey
That's why I'm tryna make my pay
And escape the UK
It's a love hate relationship
No doubt do I wanna stay
Nah I wanna break out
Cause the rain clouds overhead
Got me feeling dread
Got me feeling like I'm already dead
Nothing left to lose
If it was left to you
Would you ever try to step in my shoes
And finish my work
If I was under the dirt
There's only so many bridges that's another that's burnt
Another confirmed my fears
I've been feeling the hurt for years
Dealin' with my people and my peers
And the cries for help
Falling on deaf ears
I guess everything must end here
And it must end now
Shut shot cause' I'm closing down
I'm broken down
I hope that there's no one around
To see my
Tears in rain dealing with the years of pain
I'm still here tryin' to maintain
Still here tryin' to maintain
It's the same old same yo it's always the same
It don't change
Tears in rain dealing with the years of pain
I'm still here tryin' to maintain
Still here tryin' to play the game
Still rolling the dice
Gambling not knowing the price
And if there really is a God I must owe him my life
If God exists then I owe my life
Enemy or friend
Friend or enemy
I touch tracks tenderly with a suicidal tendency
And when I'm gone nobody can fill the vacancy
They'll never say I was a victim of complacency
In the place to be seen I was home banging beats
Bagging trees tryna make ends meet
The only way I know how for now
I couldn't stay at my mum's I moved out of the house
I'm too proud crafting to earn a pound
And it's my own little niche that I'm carving now
Don't ask about the ups and downs
Can't you see that I'm still tryna turn my frown upside down
I cry the tears of a clown
Tears in the rain
I'm like a dusty old photo in a rusty frame
An old relative you can't remember the name
And if it wasn't for me
Things just wouldn't be the same
Tears in rain dealing with the years of pain
I'm still here tryin' to maintain
Still here tryin' to maintain
It's the same old same yo it's always the same
It don't change
Tears in rain dealing with the years of pain
I'm still here tryin' to maintain
Still here tryin' to play the game
Still rolling the dice
Gambling not knowing the price
And if there really is a God I must owe him my life
If God exists then I owe my life