Manateen - Horse The Band

I feel like I'm becoming
A butterfly
Or a golden bee
My smile is like razorblades
When I smile
It cuts bloody deep
My body is on the magazines
My face on the TV
My voice on the radio
That's me in my dreams
But when I open my eyes
I see I'm a piece of s**t
A WORTHLESS COWARD
A VAPID w***e
A MORAL-LESS REFUGEE
COVERED IN SORES
A BLITHERING SEA COW
LOST IN ITS DREAMS
NOBODY LIKES ME YEAH
NOBODY WANTS ME AT ALL
NOBODY LIKES ME YEAH
I find I'm deep inside
Waves crash and I breathe water
But I haven't died
I won't come up
I won't come up for air
I won't come up
I won't come up for air
and beneath the waves
I hide my head in darker waters
And nobody sees
I cut myself
And hope to draw you in
But even the sharks pass by
Someone please explain
All alone I'm growing colder
Laughter like cancer over my shoulder
Mirrors like hatchets to the world of my face
You know I'm a complete I'M A COMPLETE DISGRACE
I'M NOT A MANATEEN
I'M NOT A MANATEEN
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE
and beneath the sea
I give up and I descend
And I'm finally free
And in the end
Fills me deep inside
Waves crash and I breath water
But I haven't died
NEVER
WITH A FURIOUS POISON IN MY HEART
WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS
I LET THE TIDE TEAR ME APART
NEVER
WITH FURIOUS POISON IN MY VEINS
WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS
I won't HOLD MY BREATH AND WAIT FOR CHANGE
I DIE
ITS A SUICIDE
MY BODY SWALLOWED BY THE BIG BLUE VIOLENCE
THIS IS THE ENDLESS TIDE
I won't come up
I won't come up
I won't come up for air tonight
I won't come up
I won't come up
I won't come up for air tonight
Cold
And all alone
I held my own
Now I give up