Breakdown - J. Cole

Breakdown - J. Cole
Lyrics by：Jermaine Cole/Eero Koivistoinen
Composed by：Jermaine Cole/Eero Koivistoinen
Yeah
Yeah
Look I just shed tears homie
And no I ain't too proud to admit it
Just seen my father for the first time in a minute
When I say a minute I mean years man
D**n a whale could have swam in them tears fam
'Cause as I left 'em I reflected on my younger days
When it was just me and my brother and my mother played
Father 'cause no other man bothered
Not even my biological it never seemed logical
But I accepted it 'cause I ain't know no better
Thought I was brighter than a Polo sweater
No pops was like Martin with no Coretta
So many things you could have told me
And saved me the trouble of letting my mistakes show me
I feel like you barely know me
And that's a shame 'cause our last name is the same
That blood type flowing through our veins is the same
My mama left you and it may be that anger's to blame
But that's no excuse only you and God know the truth
On why you only called monthly barely ever saw me
Spend some summers with you and played with my cousin Maury
Maybe I should be telling you "f**k you" 'cause you selfish
But I want a father so bad I can't help but
Break down
I break down
Can't help but break down
I break down
Yeah I never thought I'd see my mama on that s**t man
It's f**king with her body now she sick d**n
I wanted a big house with a white picket fence and a pool
Who would have ever thought that it would come to this man
Quicksand is what this life feel like
That s**t these rappers kick is nothing like real life
You made a milli off of serving hard white
Yeah right
My mama tell you what addicted to that pipe feel like
Stupid n***as I heard the cops be shooting n***as
I swear to God wish I could bulletproof my n***as
Can't get no jobs but they still recruiting n***as
We trying to stand tall when it get too crucial n***as
Break down we break down
We break down we break down
Break the break down
Yeah he's serving time locked down
And she don't want nobody to know
His daughter 25 pounds
By the time he get out she gon' be 4
Now will his girl stay down
Ain't no doubt she love him yeah that's for sure
But temptation stays round
And if she strayed how could he ever know
Never know
And so she goes to the club on the weekend
A little freaking but them n***as holla but she never speakin'
But tonight I see the devil creeping
'Cause she been lonely she ain't felt a man in seven seasons
D**n she doin the best that she can
Her mama tellin' her to find another man
She college educated with a felon boyfriend
That's what she thinkin' tonight
Maybe she's right but please
Stay down mama
Gotta be strong don't break down mama
Please
Stay down mama
Gotta be strong don't break down mama
Don't break down
Yeah don't break down
Don't break down
Don't break down
Uh break the break down