Abeyance - Belakor

As the candles yawned
My world grew darker
'Til barely a detail remained
Parchment and smoke
Through distant chimes
Moths carried by the breeze
Her finger to my lips
I am stilled in an instant
I sip and am numbed
From here the path winds backwards
At first I see my entering
And then steps in reverse
Descent where I had climbed
To pass where I had fallen
Familiar all is frayed
And yet I cannot abide
Beyond my eyelids I have died
Days are merging quickly now
Into years that spiral from my chest
They pass but leave no mark
Familiar all is skewed
And yet I cannot reflect
Beyond my eyelids I have died
Yet I collapse into youth
Familiar all is frayed
And yet I cannot abide
Beyond my eyelids I have died
I swallow forgotten words
To gain what was lost
And lose what was gained
Until neither is real
Behind my head her hands hold no weight
I have reached a beginning
But somehow I do not stop
I fall through the first moment
To find that there is more
As light cascades
Through the hole my body has torn
Already it is closing