Eulogy - $uicideboy$

[00:00.000] 作曲 : Aristos Petrou\/Scott Arceneaux Jr.
[00:00.006] When I, when I, when I, when I (You did good, $lick)
[00:02.714] When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell
[00:05.570] When I, when I, when I, when I
[00:08.803] When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell
[00:11.957] When I, when I, when I, when I, when I
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[00:15.638] Three AM, drinkin' with this pistol on my lap, uh
[00:18.666] Six medications, guess there ain't no fixin' that
[00:21.518] It's the broken mother****er, [?] 'til I relapse
[00:24.813] If I die they might cry 'til they inherit my stacks
[00:28.255] Cold ****in' world, tell me what's the word
[00:31.039] Only time I speak my heart is when the message come out slurred
[00:34.497] People pleasin', always eager to fix a mother****er's problems
[00:37.807] Leave me at the bottom, all comfortable with Gomorrah Sodom
[00:41.238] I chew on fent and rot my teeth off
[00:44.208] Moments of peace and slow heart beats got offered
[00:47.379] God I dissed, you gon' save me?
[00:50.361] All I can do is laugh and say \"C'est la vie\"
[00:53.025] Woah, was me, I know you get the picture
[00:57.513] This type of pain will earn you seven figures
[01:00.230] Check my DNA, my RNA come with predictors
[01:03.293] This shit is scripture and for what I got there's no elixirs
[01:07.136] Feel like I'm not enough
[01:09.279] Find myself playin' my dad like Honey Boy and Shia LaBeouf
[01:13.418] My momma cryin' as she watch the clock
[01:15.596] Text my bro, I love him even though he got my number blocked
[01:19.325] I would give up everythin' to see my brothers clean
[01:22.198] No second thoughts, it's **** the cost or take me, leave 'em be
[01:25.213] Take my money say you love me even if it's lies
[01:28.432] That connection so depressin' but it's all I got
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[01:32.652] When I die just play this ****ing song
[01:34.469] I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on
[01:38.156] Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes, none of it is shit for me
[01:42.423] Cock the pistol and now I'm-
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[01:47.376] Head in the clouds, it look like it might rain again
[01:49.847] Always holdin' back tears, it's how I manage to pay the rent
[01:53.015] Pay the bills, place the bets so I don't have to chase the check
[01:56.156] Verified through suicide, the glitz and glamour came and went
[02:00.201] Wash my ****in' soul, there's still that one stain is kept
[02:03.425] I just wanna be loved, the root of all my pain
[02:05.555] Except the type that comes with age and death
[02:07.660] I can finally lay and rest, I'm moved the lil' peace
[02:10.303] And I'm ready to erase the debt (I, I, I, I)
[02:12.381] I never planned on showin' the world the face that hides behind the mask
[02:15.603] I always thought the last thing I would hear would be the guns blast
[02:18.705] Fill in the black hole in my chest with sex and drugs, but it never lasts, it never lasts
[02:24.413] Shit, two years ago Big Pharma should have just cashed me out
[02:27.792] Now I got a deviated septum I'ma just wrap me out
[02:30.713] Pat me down, ask me how I'm still depressed
[02:34.301] All they see is me sad, all they see is lack of death
[02:36.978] All they see is what they wanna see
[02:38.891] Callin' me a wannabe, I don't wanna be in misery except a pharmacy
[02:43.549] Killed that girl I wanna see, I wanna see her heart bleed
[02:46.548] When she rips out my ****ing heart and to the pharmacy
[02:50.555] I'm a prideful person and take pride in my verses
[02:53.411] **** your whole opinion I don't care if it worsens
[02:56.495] I'll ruin my reputation and make sure it's on purpose
[03:00.961] **** this shit
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[03:04.050] When I die just play this ****ing song
[03:06.126] I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on
[03:09.711] Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes, none of it is shit for me
[03:13.977] Cock the pistol and now I'm-
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[03:18.303] When I, when I, when I, when I
[03:21.322] When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell
[03:24.586] When I, when I, when I, when I
[03:27.698] When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell