Trying - Bully

Trying - Bully

That kinkied up invisible handcuffs locked on me
那副无形而又纠缠的镣铐将我禁锢
Been praying for my period all week
祈祷这期限只会是一周
And relief that I just can't see
让我于这无法看清的现实中得以救赎
I question everything my focus my figure my sexuality
我质疑所有 我的注意力 我的身材 我的性别
And how much it matters or why it would mean anything
这又有多重要 而为何它意义非凡
I can't keep together I 've been better
我无法重拾自我 一直以来得以安好
I 've been thinking about it every night
每个夜晚我不禁思考
I'm trying I am
我不懈努力只求我能
I'm trying I am
我不懈努力只求我能
Trying to hate from my mind I am
抽离于我的心中愤恨
Trying all the time I am
始终如一的不懈尝试
Trying to hate from my mind I am
抽离于我的心中愤恨
Trying trying all of mine
只为拼凑完整的自我
But kinkied up there's no flawless education just a stupid play
但纠结的是毫无缺陷的教育不过是愚蠢的游戏
I feel enough growing so far from myself
感觉我已足够成熟 远离曾经的自我
I can't reach I can't reach I can't reach
我却无法抵达 无法抵达预期的终点
So brush it off cause I wanted that it's been dusting up
就暂忘吧 因为我期待这一切会如扬尘消散
When you walk like that here's a shit
你像是玩世不恭般前行
There's a wick that will keep yourself from checkers
恶念会让你疏于防备
All these loaded questions gonna eat you alive
所有附加的问题会将你活活吞噬
I'm trying I am
我不懈努力只求我能
I'm trying I am
我不懈努力只求我能
Trying to hate from my mind I am
抽离于我的心中愤恨
Trying all the time I am
始终如一的不懈尝试
Trying to hate from my mind I am
抽离于我的心中愤恨
Trying trying all of mine
只为拼凑完整的自我
If it kills for anything
如果这企图扼杀什么
I didn't want to
我并非期待这样的结果
I'm just looking for a clarity
我只想探寻清楚的真相
To help me to get through
助我安然度过所有
If you're setting your ways
如果你已设定你的方式
Well get enough to
好吧 足以
It's absolutely that I can break it down for you
毫无疑问 我会为你摧毁
To feel the beast to leave on leash
心中那头不受控的野兽
To come right back to you
只为重回你的身边
I'm trying
我竭尽全力
Trying to hate from my mind I am
抽离于我的心中愤恨
Trying all the time I am
始终如一的不懈尝试
Trying to hate from my mind I am
抽离于我的心中愤恨
Trying trying all of mine
只为拼凑完整的自我
Why you mind
为何你会在意
Won't lie why you mind
我不会谎言相待 为何你会在乎