dread - nothing

[00:20.46]I look into the mirror, all I'm seeing is a skeleton
[00:24.65]I keep losing weight, so they got me taking medicine
[00:27.38]I can't go a day without relying on these sedatives
[00:30.24]Therapy and doctors, I feel like a specimen
[00:33.10]Every ******* night that I've been laying in my bed
[00:35.73]Doing all I can to fight the certain sense of dread
[00:38.64]Feeling like this panic that I have will never end
[00:41.40]And so I fantasize about that gun up to my head
[00:44.28]And now these pills got me feeling asleep
[00:46.92]When I'm awake, can't get away
[00:48.32]Even when I sleep I feel pain
[00:50.35]Vivid visions in the past creeping into my brain
[00:53.21]About to break, I just want to feel like I'm sane
[00:56.07]And I just want to know what I did
[00:58.89]Do I deserve this, like why I gotta deal with this ****, man
[01:02.41]And I just wanna know when it happened
[01:04.58]When I lost my mind
[01:05.77]And will I ever truly feel happy, ************
[01:08.55]I wanna know when the pain stops
[01:11.29]Walking around with the same thoughts
[01:14.25]I wanna know when the pain stops
[01:16.40]Face down, ****** up with the door locked
[01:19.40]I wanna know when the pain stops
[01:22.19]Walking around with the same thoughts
[01:25.45]I wanna know when the pain stops
[01:27.96]Face down, ****** up with the door locked
[01:38.99]I've been fighting this with everything that I have
[01:44.02]And I've been trying to separate the good from the bad
[01:46.83]Well, I can't see an end to all the pain that I face
[01:49.70]I had to cancel the tour, I couldn't take any more
[01:52.47]I feel the weight of expectation pressing down on my chest
[01:55.32]I feel like everybody has their own belief of what's best
[01:58.10]Meditation, medication, should I pray to a god?
[02:00.91]I refuse to let this win and be consumed by my thoughts
[02:03.98]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:07.86]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:10.60]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:13.37]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:16.29]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:18.86]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:21.81]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:24.75]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:27.36]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:30.08]Walking around with the same thoughts
[02:33.28]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:35.53]Face down, ****** up with the door locked
[02:38.50]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:41.56]Walking around with the same thoughts
[02:44.56]I wanna know when the pain stops
[02:46.72]Face down, ****** up with the door locked
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