Survivors Guilt - Joey Bada$$

[00:00.000] 作词 : Jo-Vaughn Virginie\/Columbus Smith III\/Michael C. Flowers
[00:00.000] 作曲 : Jo-Vaughn Virginie\/Columbus Smith III\/Michael C. Flowers
[00:00.000][Spoken: Capital STEEZ]
[00:06.351]I thought I was goin' crazy, you know?
[00:09.549]And like, I realize that I wasn't the one that was crazy
[00:12.734]I realized that it's the system that was built against me, you know?
[00:16.738]And like, I'm not supposed to be talkin' about this
[00:19.479]And that's the corruption of it, because like, me just saying it is absurd
[00:23.972]And I want people to open up their eyes and realize that I'm not wrong, you know?
[00:27.272]I-I'm, I'm just a openminded individual, and people should be more openminded
[00:31.545]If-If we tryna build up our lives to have material things
[00:38.473]And those don't satisfy our needs, what are we living for?
[00:41.136][Intro: Joey Bada$$]
[00:49.160]Right, right, come on (Alright)
[00:55.802][Chorus: Joey Bada$$]
[00:57.398]This onе is for you, uh-huh
[01:00.081]This one is for you, (Is for you, for you, for you, ooh)
[01:03.030]This one is for you, uh-huh
[01:05.949]This one is for you (Is for you, for you, for you, ooh)
[01:07.307](It's alright)
[01:08.628][Verse 1: Joey Bada$$]
[01:10.227]Steezy told mе, \"Get 'em,\" so I got 'em (Got 'em)
[01:12.088]Now my nigga gone, he will never be forgotten (Never)
[01:15.027]Ever since he left, I just been strugglin' without him (Uh-huh)
[01:17.961]'Cause I remember linkin' after school and we'd be plottin' (Plottin')
[01:21.384]Talk about our problems and what we do about 'em (Yeah)
[01:23.509]Journalin' and jottin', we ain't know the world was watchin' (Facts)
[01:26.722]We was just two kids tryna make it out the bottom (Uh-huh)
[01:29.136]Now I'm rich and rotten, everyday I think about him, it's survivors guilt
[01:33.417]Wishin' I coulda stopped him, let alone just know how he feel
[01:36.081]Lyrically couldn't top him, he was the nigga with the belt (Uh-huh)
[01:39.004]Yeah, and that's real rap, I couldn't do this shit without him, and that's just fact
[01:43.518]You see, if you ain't know Steelo, then you don't know me though (No)
[01:46.703]And that's how I separate all the real from fake people (Yeah)
[01:49.650]Or the real from fake fans (Uh-huh)
[01:50.960]Who claimin' that they stans (Uh-huh)
[01:52.558]But they ain't know my mans (No)
[01:54.167]Until the very end, wish he was still here
[01:56.540]I swear it feels weird how people could accuse me for his death
[01:59.737]Sometimes I gotta shed a real tear (Tear)
[02:01.602]You see, the truth about Steelo, he lacked the mental health (He did)
[02:04.248]But try to tell that to people way back in 2012 (I can't)
[02:07.172]But now that it's a mainstream topic
[02:09.827]I'm guessin' I can finally open up and talk about it
[02:12.742]So yeah, let's talk about it (Yeah)
[02:14.348]Come into my mind, I show you where the darkest cloud is
[02:17.527]You ready? I doubt it, but let's go
[02:19.121]You see, Steelo was my bigger bro (Uh-huh)
[02:20.977]At a point in time, spiritually, we was in the same boat, but
[02:24.707]I wanted to take it slow, he wanted to take it as fast
[02:27.628]And deep as he could go, pause
[02:29.764]Yeah, we had some problems, but we're brothers though, sure
[02:32.419]Then I caught a little wave and headed back to shore
[02:35.078]And that's when he started drowning
[02:36.962]And he had no one around him, so partially I feel it's my fault (Hey) And that right there is my internal war (Uh-huh)
[02:44.684]The reason why I got to feel these external flaws
[02:47.885]The reason why I can't heal this eternal loss
[02:50.572]The reason why I gotta feel the survivors remorse (Shh)
[02:53.749]And here's a message to his fam
[02:56.144]I know y'all got emotional trauma, that, I understand (I understand)
[02:59.056]But I couldn't **** with, y'all try to tell the world I wasn't who I am
[03:02.593]When all I ever tried to do was lend a hand (That wasn't cool)
[03:04.980]And give the fans the thing that they demand the most
[03:08.184]King Capital, the ****ing GOAT, word
[03:11.088]I'm just tryna get my nigga heard, give him what he deserves
[03:15.619][Chorus: Joey Bada$$]
[03:16.150]This one is for you, uh-huh
[03:18.819]This one is for you, (Is for you, for you, for you, ooh)
[03:22.001]This one is for you, uh-huh
[03:24.592]This one is for you (Is for you, for you, for you, ooh)
[03:26.450](It's alright)
[03:27.760][Verse 2: Joey Bada$$]
[03:28.310]Yeah, and  my cousin Junior B (R.I.P)
[03:31.225]Y'all ain't know too much about him, so it's up to me (It's up to me)
[03:34.141]To share his legacy with the world
[03:36.540]It kills me to think he'll never meet my baby girl (Shh)
[03:39.996]And when I lost Jun', that hurt me in the worst way (Worst way)
[03:42.913]He even died two days before his birthday (His birthday)
[03:45.585]Damn, that brings tears to my eyes
[03:47.966]My nigga really never made it up to twenty-five (Damn)
[03:50.897]That's why I'm thanking God every time I open my eyes (Uh-huh)
[03:53.553]Add the fact that we alive and we feelin' these vibes (Vibes)
[03:56.736]'Cause we be fillin' these voids, part of me got destroyed (Facts)
[03:59.407]When I lost my boys, it's like I lost my voice (Uh-huh)
[04:02.323]It took me all of this time just to put it in a song (Song)
[04:05.235]Because I'm still dealin' with the fact my niggas is gone (Yeah)
[04:08.428]Write they names up on the clouds 'cause that's where they belong (Uh-huh)
[04:11.090]As long as I live on, they'll forever be known, this one for you
[04:14.799]This one for–, yeah
[04:18.260][Chorus: Joey Bada$$]
[04:19.582]This one is for you, uh-huh
[04:22.495]This one is for you (Is for you, for you, for you, ooh)
[04:24.098](Long as you'll forever be know, this one's for you)
[04:25.901]This one is for you, uh-huh
[04:28.066]This one is for you (Is for you, for you, for you, ooh)
[04:30.990]This one is for you, uh-huh, This one is for you
[04:39.733]Yeah, I'm off to— I'm off to Deliani, Deli Honest
[04:43.983]So I'ma make this quick, you know
[04:45.327]Pass the black lip back on that shit
[04:47.977]True story, look, so I'm in New York, my first time
[04:50.371]One of my first times that I'm, I'm playin' my-my, one of my first albums for the big homie, and he got these kids in there, they just on skateboards
[04:58.881]I'm like, \"Yo, this super cool,\" this, this guy got the kids out here, you know, keepin' the kids off of the streets, right?
[05:04.209]So, fast forward a year later, I go back to New York, and then I meet this kid, he's like, \"Yeah, man, I don't know if you remember me, me and my homies, the Pro Era\"
[05:14.559]Crazy, I was like, \"Oh, yeah, wha-what's your name?\"
[05:16.695]He said, \"Capital STEEZ,\" I said, \"Oh, okay, fosho\"
[05:19.621]Fast forward, my boy Doe called me, Doe Burger! Ahaha
[05:24.924]That nigga called me and say, \"Yo, you heard these kids, the Pro Era? Joey Bada$$?\"
[05:29.186]I'm like, \"Yeah, yeah, I met the kid Capital STEEZ, they crazy\"
[05:33.193]Fast forward another year or so, I'm on tour with Joey
[05:36.646]We been fourty-seven ever since, man, we got that shit tatted on us, man, for life, man
[05:41.708]Tryin' to show the move, man, you know?
[05:44.906]Everything come back around full circle, you know what I mean?