The pains of sleep - Pantheist

[01:17.73]Ere on my bed my limbs I lay
[01:36.88]It hath not been my use to pray
[01:55.51]With moving lips or bended knees
[02:14.54]But silently, by slow degrees
[02:34.62]My spirit I to Love compose
[02:43.32]In humble trust mine eye-lids close
[02:53.01]With reverential resignation
[03:02.51]No wish conceived, no thought expressed
[03:13.95]Only a sense of supplication
[03:32.31]A sense o'er all my soul impressed
[03:51.34]That I am weak, yet not unblessed
[04:11.00]Since in me, round me, every where
[04:15.48]Eternal Strength and Wisdom are
[04:29.72]But yester-night I prayed aloud
[04:39.30]In anguish and in agony
[04:49.28]Up-starting from the fiendish crowd
[04:58.61]Of shapes and thoughts that tortured me
[05:31.53]A lurid light, a trampling throng
[05:35.07]A sense of intolerable wrong
[05:37.87]And whom I scorned, those only strong
[05:41.34]Thirst of revenge, the powerless will
[05:44.86]Still baffled, and yet burning still
[05:48.64]Desire with loathing strangely mixed
[05:52.42]On wild or hateful objects fixed
[05:55.56]Fantastic passions! maddening brawl
[05:59.00]And shame and terror over all
[06:02.44]Deeds to be hid which were not hid
[06:05.52]Which all confused I could not know
[06:08.81]Whether I suffered, or I did
[06:11.28]For all seemed guilt, remorse or woe
[06:14.74]My own or others still the same
[06:17.26]Life-stifling fear, soul-stifling shame
[06:20.12]So two nights passed, the night's dismay
[06:28.28]Saddened and stunned the coming day
[06:36.22]Sleep, the wide blessing, seemed to me
[06:44.35]Distemper's worst calamity
[06:52.32]The third night, when my own loud scream
[07:00.31]Had waked me from the fiendish dream
[07:08.25]O'ercome with sufferings strange and wild
[07:16.27]I wept as I had been a child
[07:23.94]So two nights passed, the night's dismay
[07:32.77]Saddened and stunned the coming day
[07:40.04]Sleep, the wide blessing, seemed to me
[07:48.34]Distemper's worst calamity
[07:56.48]The third night, when my own loud scream
[08:04.34]Had waked me from the fiendish dream
[08:11.72]O'ercome with sufferings strange and wild
[08:20.68]I wept as I had been a child
[08:30.95]And having thus by tears subdued
[08:46.95]My anguish to a milder mood
[09:02.58]Such punishments, I said, were due
[09:18.41]To natures deepliest stained with sin
[09:34.34]For aye entempesting anew
[09:42.32]The unfathomable hell within
[09:50.36]The horror of their deeds to view
[09:58.32]To know and loathe, yet wish and do
[10:06.93]Such griefs with such men well agree
[10:22.30]But wherefore, wherefore fall on me
[10:38.39]To be beloved is all I need
[10:54.35]And whom I love, I love indeed
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