selfish (i wished you hated me) - Demxntia

[00:01.54]drown me in despair
[00:04.51]i’m broken
[00:06.11]way beyond repair
[00:08.64]from sulking
[00:10.67]over the times that we’d never get back
[00:15.32]drunk every night with a cigarette pack
[00:20.00]but it’s only fair
[00:23.30]that i’m broken
[00:24.82]way beyond repair
[00:27.87]i know that
[00:29.42]it’s all my fault, i’m guilty as charged
[00:33.62]i’d end it all but that’s not what you want
[00:38.61]so it’s hard to bear
[00:42.97]cuz i know you still care
[00:48.08]but i wished you hated me
[00:52.44]as much as you tried to
[00:57.16]but you’d never hate
[01:00.78]me as much as i do
[01:06.30]and my only fear for
[01:08.63]when i’m no longer here
[01:10.87]is that you’ll find someone else
[01:13.17]who’ll deserve all your tears
[01:15.97]and i know that sounds selfish
[01:20.53]but i just can’t help it
[01:25.53]been well prepared
[01:28.52]to go now
[01:30.12]i’ll be somewhere
[01:32.84]you know how
[01:34.53]i tend to leave all the ones that i love
[01:39.29]just to pretend like i won’t give a ****
[01:44.03]to see what we built
[01:46.21]become a ghost town
[01:48.59]swallowed by guilt, like my pills
[01:51.78]i’ve broken down
[01:53.37]every night, i go through withdrawals
[01:57.99]but it’s only right for all of my wrongs
[02:02.74]it’d be easier to bear
[02:07.07]if you never cared
[02:12.17]i wished you hated me
[02:16.50]as much as you tried to
[02:21.42]but you’d never hate
[02:24.84]me as much as i do
[02:30.73]and my only fear for
[02:32.74]when i’m no longer here
[02:35.00]is that you’ll find someone else
[02:37.18]who deserve all your tears
[02:40.20]and i know that sounds selfish
[02:44.91]but i just can’t help it