Stan (Recorded at Spotify Studios NYC) - Alec Benjamin

[00:01.226] My tea's gone cold
[00:02.238] I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
[00:06.942] The morning rain cloud touched my window
[00:09.924] And I can't see at all
[00:12.696] And even if I could it would all be gray
[00:16.223] I put your picture on my wall
[00:18.344] It reminds me that it's not so bad it's not so bad
[00:23.948] Dear Slim I wrote you but you
[00:25.567] Still ain't callin'
[00:26.542] I left my cell my pager and
[00:27.802] My home phone at the bottom
[00:29.395] I sent two letters back in
[00:30.498] Autumn you must not've got 'em
[00:32.301] There probably was a problem
[00:33.447] At the post office or somethin'
[00:35.042] Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
[00:37.680] But anyways f**k it what's been up man how's your daughter
[00:41.069] My girlfriend's pregnant too I'm 'bout to be a father
[00:43.559] If I have a daughter guess what I'ma call her
[00:46.306] I'ma name her Bonnie
[00:47.316] I read about your Uncle
[00:48.654] Ronnie too I'm sorry
[00:49.661] I had a friend kill himself over
[00:51.270] Some b***h who didn't want him
[00:52.907] I know you probably hear this
[00:54.235] Every day but I'm your biggest fan
[00:56.144] I even got the underground
[00:57.335] S**t that you did with Skam
[00:59.259] I got a room full of your
[01:00.376] Posters and your pictures man
[01:01.645] I like the s**t you did
[01:02.761] With Rawkus too that s**t was phat
[01:04.151] Anyways I hope you get this
[01:05.978] Man hit me back
[01:07.308] Just to chat truly yours
[01:08.633] Your biggest fan this is Stan
[01:10.162] My tea's gone cold
[01:12.600] I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
[01:16.925] The morning rain cloud touched my window
[01:20.054] And I can't see at all
[01:22.651] And even if I could it would all be gray
[01:25.570] I put your picture on my wall
[01:28.454] It reminds me that it's not so bad
[01:32.402] It's not so bad
[01:34.133] Dear Slim you still ain't called or
[01:35.884] Wrote hope you have a chance
[01:37.277] I ain't mad I just think it's
[01:38.303] F**ked up you don't answer fans
[01:39.813] If you don't wanna to talk
[01:40.908] To me outside your concert
[01:42.324] You didn't have to
[01:43.438] But you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
[01:45.489] That's my little brother
[01:46.538] Man he's only six years old
[01:47.894] We waited in the blisterin' cold
[01:49.406] For you for four hours
[01:50.410] And you just said no
[01:51.655] That's pretty shitty man
[01:52.976] You're like his f**kin' idol
[01:54.209] He wants to be just like you man
[01:55.631] He likes you more than I do
[01:57.226] I ain't that mad though
[01:58.375] I just don't like being lied to
[01:59.950] Remember when we met in Denver
[02:01.582] You said if I'd write you
[02:02.669] You would write back
[02:03.938] See I'm just like you in a way
[02:05.099] I never knew my father neither
[02:06.699] He used to always cheat
[02:07.797] On my mom and beat her
[02:09.400] I can relate to what you're sayin'
[02:10.799] In your songs
[02:11.731] So when I have a shitty day
[02:12.975] I drift away and put 'em on
[02:14.410] 'Cause I don't really got s**t else
[02:15.871] So that s**t helps when I'm depressed
[02:17.305] I even got a tattoo of your
[02:18.954] Name across the chest
[02:20.455] Sometimes I even cut myself
[02:21.972] To see how much it bleeds
[02:23.324] It's like adrenaline
[02:24.223] The pain is such a sudden rush for me
[02:26.129] See everything you say is real
[02:27.393] And I respect you 'cause you tell it
[02:29.073] My girlfriend's jealous 'cause
[02:30.657] I talk about you ２４７
[02:32.386] But she don't know you like I know you
[02:34.281] Slim no one does
[02:35.329] She don't know what it was like
[02:36.384] For people like us growin' up
[02:37.587] You gotta call me man
[02:38.774] I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
[02:40.520] Sincerely yours Stan
[02:41.762] PS we should be together too
[02:43.983] My tea's gone cold
[02:45.875] I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
[02:50.599] The morning rain cloud touched my window
[02:53.378] And I can't see at all
[02:56.253] And even if I could it would all be gray
[02:59.191] I put your picture on my wall
[03:02.104] It reminds me that it's not so bad
[03:05.990] It's not so bad
[03:07.512] And the story isn't over, but I have to tell the truth
[03:09.882] I know I couldn't do it justice, only one who could is you
[03:12.461] Because I idolized you Marshall, and nobody understands
[03:15.924] Maybe I'm a little crazy, maybe I am just like Stan, damn