I Have A Special Plan For This World - Current 93

When everyone you have ever loved is finally gone
当你爱过的人都离你而去
When everything you have ever wanted is finally done with
当你想要的一切都不复存在时
When all of your nightmares are for a time obscured
当你的噩梦暂时消失不见
As by a shining brainless beacon
就像被无脑灯塔照亮
Or a blinding eclipse of the many terrible shapes of this world
亦或是这世界的各种可怕形象黯然失色
When you are calm and joyful
当你平静喜悦时
And finally entirely alone
最后孤独一人
Then in a great new darkness
在一片黑暗中
You will finally execute your special plan
你最终会执行你的特别计划
One needs to have a plan someone said
一个人得有个计划有人说
Who was turned away into the shadows
他被蒙上阴影
And who I had believed was sleeping or dead
我以为他已经睡着或是死了
Imagine he said all the flesh that is eaten
想象一下他说所有被吃掉的肉
The teeth tearing into it
牙齿撕裂
The tongue tasting its savor
舌尖品尝着它的滋味
And the hunger for that taste
对那种滋味充满渴望
Now take away that flesh he said
现在拿走你的肉体他说
Take away the teeth and the tongue
把牙齿和舌头都带走
The taste and the hunger
那滋味那饥渴
Take away everything as it is
让一切顺其自然
That was my plan
那是我的计划
My own special plan for this world
我对这世界的特别计划
I listened to these words and yet I did not wonder
我侧耳倾听可我并不感到困惑
If this creature whom I had thought sleeping
如果这个我以为睡着的生物
Or dead would ever approach his vision
或者死去的人会出现在他眼前
Even in his deepest dreams
即使在他最深的梦里
Or his most lasting death
亦或是他最持久的死亡
Because I had heard of such plans such visions
因为我听说过这样的计划这样的愿景
And I knew they did not see far enough
我知道他们的眼界不够开阔
That what was demanded in a way of a plan
在某种程度上说这是一种计划
Needed to go beyond tongue and teeth and hunger and flesh
需要摆脱口齿不清饥饿和肉体的折磨
Beyond the bones and the very dust of bones
超越白骨与白骨之间的尘埃
And the wind that would come to blow the dust away
风会把尘土吹走
And so I began to envision a darkness
于是我开始想象一片黑暗
That was long before the dark of night
那是远在夜幕降临之前
And a strangely shining light
一束奇怪的光芒
That owed nothing to the light of day
对白天的阳光毫无亏欠
That day may seem like other days
那一天可能和其他时候没什么两样
Once more we feel the tiny legged trepidations
我们再次感觉双腿颤抖
Once more we are mangled by a great grinding fear
我们再次被巨大的恐惧折磨着
But that day will have no others after
但那一天以后就不会再有了
No more worlds like this will follow
未来再也不会有这样的世界
Because I have a plan
因为我有一个计划
A very special plan
一个特别的计划
No more worlds like this
再也没有这样的世界
No more days like that
再也没有那样的日子
There are but four ways to die
只有四种死法
A sardonic spirit might have said to me
愤世嫉俗的人可能会对我说
There is dying that occurs relatively suddenly
有些死亡是突然发生的
There is dying that occurs relatively gradually
死亡的过程相对缓慢
There is dying that occurs relatively painlessly
有些死亡相对而言并不痛苦
There is the death that is full of pain
死亡充满了痛苦
Thus by various means they are combined
于是通过各种手段将它们结合在一起
The sudden and the gradual
突然之间慢慢地
The painless and the painful
没有痛苦也很痛苦
To yield but four ways to die
只有四种死法
And there are no others
没有别人
Even after the voice stopped speaking
即使那个声音不再说话
I listened for it to speak again
我侧耳倾听希望它再次开口
After hours and day and years have passed
日复一日年复一年
I listened for some further words
我侧耳倾听想听到更多的话语
Yet all I heard were the faintest echoes reminding me
可我只听见最微弱的回响提醒着我
There are no others
没有别人
There are no others
没有别人
Was it then that I began to conceive
是不是从那时起我就开始怀孕了
For this world a special plan
这世界有一个特别的计划
There are no means for escaping this world
没有办法逃离这个世界
It penetrates even into your sleep
甚至会渗透到你的睡梦中
And is his substance
他的本质是什么
You are caught in your own dreaming
你沉浸在自己的梦境里
Where there is no space
没有空间
And a hell forever where there is no time
永恒的地狱没有时间
You can't do nothing you aren't told to do
别人叫你做什么你都不能做
There is no hope for escape from this dream
从这场梦里逃出来是没有希望的
That was never yours
根本就不属于你
The very words you speak are only its very words
你说的每一句话都只是它的只言片语
And you talk like a traitor
你说的话就像个叛徒
Under its incessant torture
无休无止的折磨
There are many who have designs upon this world
有许多人对这世界心怀不轨
And dream of wild and vast reformations
梦想着彻底改革
I have heard them talking in their sleep
我听到他们说梦话
Of elegant mutations
优雅的变化
And cunning annihilations
巧妙地消灭敌人
I have heard them whispering in the corners of crooked houses
我听到他们在歪歪扭扭的房屋角落窃窃私语
And in the alleys and narrow back
在小巷里在狭窄的后院里
Streets of this crooked creaking universe
这扭曲嘎吱作响的宇宙的街道
Which they with their new designs were made straight and sound
他们的新设计无可挑剔
But each of these new and ill conceived designs
但每一个新的错误构想
Is deranged in its heart
在它的心中失去理智
For they see this world as if it were alone and original
因为他们觉得这个世界独一无二
And not as only one of count with others
不像其他人一样斤斤计较
Whose nightmares all precede
噩梦接踵而至
Like a hideous garden grown from a single seed
就像一颗种子长成的丑陋花园
I have heard these dreamers talking in their sleep
我听到这些梦想家说着梦话
And I stand waiting for them
我站在那里等着他们
As at the top of a darkened flight of stairs
就像站在黑暗的楼梯顶端
They know nothing of me
他们对我一无所知
And none of the secrets of my special plan
我的特别计划里没有一个秘密
While I know every crooked creaking step of theirs
我知道他们的每一个舞步
It was the voice of someone who was waiting in the shadows
那是某个在黑暗中等待的人的声音
Who was looking at the moon and waiting for me to turn the corner
他望着月亮等待着我的出现
And enter a narrow street
走进一条狭窄的街道
And stand with him in the dull glaze of moonlight
和他站在黯淡的月光下
Then he said to me
然后他对我说
He whispered
他低声说
That my plan was misconceived
我的计划是错误的
That my special plan for this world was a terrible mistake
我对这个世界的特别计划是一个可怕的错误
Because he said there is nothing to do
因为他说我们无能为力
And there is no where to go
无处可去
There is nothing to be and there is no one to know
Your plan is a mistake he repeated
This world is a mistake I replied
The children always followed him
When they saw him hopping by
A funny walk
A funny man
A funny funny funny man
He made them laugh sometimes
He made them laugh oh yes he did
He did he did he did he did
Oh how he made them roll
One day he took them to a place
He knew a special place
And told them things about this world
This funny funny funny world
Which made them laugh sometimes
He made them laugh oh yes he did
He did he did he did he did
Oh how he made them roll
Then the funny man who made them laugh
Sometimes he did
Revealed to them his special plan
His very special funny plan
Knowing they would understand
And maybe laugh sometimes
He made them laugh
Oh yes he did
He did he did he did he did
Their eyes grew wide beneath there lids
And how he made them roll
I first learned the facts from a lunatic
In a dark and quiet room that smelled of stale time and space
There are no people
Nothing at all like that
The human phenomenon is but the sum of densely coiled layers of illusion
Each of which winds itself upon the supreme insanity
But there are persons of any kind
When all that can be is mindless mirrors
Laughing and screaming as they parade about
In an endless dream
But when I asked the lunatic what it was
It swore itself within these mirrors
As they marched endlessly in stale time and space
He only looked and smiled
Then he laughed and screamed
And in his black and empty eyes
I saw for a moment as in a mirror
A form the shade of divinity
In flight from its stale infinity
Of time and space and the worst of all
Of this world dreams
My special plan for the laughter
And the screams
We went to see some little show
That was staged in an old shed
Past the edge of town
And in its beginnings all seemed well
The miniature curtain stage glowed in the darkness
While those dolls bounced along on their strings before our eyes
And in its beginnings all seemed well
But then there came a suttle turning point which some have noticed
And I was one
Who quietly left the show
No I did not
Because I could see where things were going
As the antics of those dolls grew strange
And the fragile strings grew taut
With their tiny pullings tiny limbs
The others around me became appalled
And turned away and abandoned the show
That was staged in an old shed
Past the edge of town
But I wanted to witness what could never be
I wanted to see what could not be seen
The moment of consummate disaster
When puppets turn to face the puppet master
It was twilight and I stood in a grayish haze of the vast empty building
When the silence was enriched by a reverberant voice
All the things of this world it said
Are of but one essence
For which there are no words
This is the greater part which has no beginning or end
And the one essence of this world for which there can be no words
Is that all the things of this world
This is the lesser part which had a beginning and shall have an end
And for which words were conceived solely to speak of
The tiny broken beings of this world it said
The beginnings and endings of this world it said
For which words were conceived solely to speak of
Now remove these words and what remains it asks me
As I stood in the twilight of that vast empty building
But I did not answer
The question echoed over and over
But I remained silent until the echoes died
And as twilight passed into the evening I felt my
Special plan for which there are no words
Moving towards a greater darkness
There are some who have no voices
Or none that will ever speak
Because of the things they know about this world
And the things they feel about this world
Because the thoughts that fill a brain
That is a damaged brain
Because the pain that fills a body
That is a damaged body
Exists in other worlds
Countless other worlds
Each of which stands alone in an infinite empty blackness
For which no words are being conceived
And where no voices are able to speak
When a brain is filled only with damaged thoughts
When a damaged body is filled only with pain
And stands alone in a world surrounded by infinite empty blackness
And exists in a world for which there is no special plan
When everyone you have ever loved is finally gone
When everything you have ever wanted is finally done with
When all of your nightmares are for a time obscured
As by a shining brainless beacon
Or a blinding eclipse of the many terrible shapes of this world
When you are calm and joyful
And finally entirely alone
Then in a great new darkness
You will finally execute your special plan
你最终会执行你的特别计划