Substantial Guilt vs. the Irony of Enjoying - Ion Dissonance

Artist：ion dissonance
Songs Title：substantial guilt vs. the irony of enjoying
And I lay numb, waiting for something worst to happen.
Sweet innocence, it happened so suddenly.
She crossed my path on the way to nothingness
I knew that was encountering an angel of purity
And in the process I've quickly understood that I don't deserve her
None of us, humans, do.
Beholding such a fatality leave you empty with bitter grief
Life seem to be tarnished and sour, raped in it's very essence
But sorrow is rapidly replaced by frustration, envy and despair.
Dressed in white, a child alone
So fragile and beautiful has dawn
To hold her close was exhilarating in a most vicious way.
I felt so weak, yet empowered somehow.
One thing leading to another, I knew then
That if I could not experience nor possess purity
I would at least try to grasp it and choke the life out of it.
And I did, oh why, I don't know but I did... violently
I've pummelled her face with my bare fists till she became awfully deformed
Bleeding and dying, all twisted in terror...
I, I, I have forcefully replaced every missing teeth in her mouth
By razor sharp shards of glass
Slowly inserting every piece of glass in the little one's gum.
Why was I laughing?
I guess that is my art, to inflict upon purity the only thing I can give
And unfortunately it's not love.
I should've feel guilty, I know, but it simply didn't occur.
(As I am unable to put the knife trough my own flesh anymore...)