The Terrible Lie (Hope) - Sentinel

The heart won't cease a beat
Prevailing despite my disloyalty
Perseverance of purgatory
A mind now rotting
Distorted with disease
Burdened with despair
Creating a serene illusion
Losing the glimpse
Of the fatal delusion
Fate I have tempted
And with knives I have danced
Have I paid my debt
Was the full price exacted?
Am I being misguided
By the velvet glove?
Am I the bringer of rapture
The bearer of the darkest days?
The pressure ever mounting
I can feel my spirit break
Will I leave a legacy of woe?
I cried the swans'
Song though in error I sang
The purest notes
Of its melody reverberate
Echoing all of my shameful sins
Mesmerising and haunting
Echoing all of its whisperings
The phantoms of uncertainty
Haunt my visions edge
Slowly gaining substance
Then fading into smoke
In the mist I see my bravery reflected
I find myself lost in the workings
Of Life's complex faith
The reality rift distorted
By the sleeping shift
These sands constantly
Fluctuating in a sway too foul
The heart and mind waltz discordantly
Mimicking structure but failing at grace
Tranquillity is but a flicker of a memory
In the forms of family
I entrench myself
Trusting that through
Love's misleading lies
There will be some sanity
My wish is to end the desperate
Dance of dissonance
Though the present
Skies seem bright and clear
It's for the futures bitter
Promise that I now fear
I no longer believe in the terrible
Lie that we forever call "Hope"