Sorry For What?(Explicit) - Scarface

Sorry For What? (Explicit) - Scarface
Is anybody out there
I swear I feel so all alone
Back down on my knees again
Hopin you can keep me strong
Cuz I can't hardly sleep tonight
I took too many sleepin pills
I drunk too many Miller Lites
And I can feel the Reaper near
So please forgive me for my sins
I am just another man
Sorry for the pain that I've caused
I know that you'll understand
These demons'll drive me - insane
I've been goin mad rightly oughta blow out my brains
Cuz I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin
Blast on the other day
These problems got me usin more ***
Along with the other things
I'm slowly fading into my thoughts
(come against me bring it on )
And I'm driftin in and outta space
And I don't believe I'm wakin up
With the alcohol them drinks
Drift me to another world
Where the sunshine stay shinin
I think I was finna url
Mom can ya look at me
This ain't what I used to be
Tomorrow I'll be somebody else
Cuz I ain't been me
I can't seem to shake these
I'll put that there on every day
Boy tryna figure me out
Is like Lamar changing
But my childhood was f**ked up
Raised rowdy by a single moms
She told me my daddy didn't give a f**k
She ain't let him do his job
Seventh grade; failing
And I don't know my next of kin
These days in these f**ked up ways
Who the f**k are them
My daddy had three other kids
But I ain't never seen 'em
So ain't no sense in coming around now
You ain't been here befo'
It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin
My whole life's been a f**kin maze
And when I tried to locate my siblings
They were gone away
Lost inside they other things
F**ked me then f**ked me now
Quick to tell me "Show you some love"
Ni**a show you Hell
Ain't no love I'm feelin here
I ain't never felt this vile
Momma - did you really love me
Or was I just a child
Said it outside I knew you seen it in my face
I wasn't really happy here
But I was forced to lead the way
Copped me a Cheverolet
Drift away to the other side just to think
If I get to see Heaven
I can thank you for the ride
And thank you for my other kids and even though
They mommas won't admit that they can't make it but bad
Low on the child support
Always been bad boo tryna make me out to be
The bad guy that I really ain't
B**ch so quick to hassle me
Cuz I don't see my kids enough
But I make the time to pick 'em up
But you find somethin to stick in my face
It ain't me f**kin up
It's bad enough face to face
Always wanna catch a case
So bad they'll try an get me they make me
And what takes the cake
Is the whole world is f**kin up
Daddy know where the weankess at
And you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes
How could you sleep wit that
Jepordize everything just for searchin for larger life
Sacrificin the whole family
With no regards to Christ
Funny how people can take this sh*t for granted right
But then reality strikes
And changes things overnight
I thank the Lord for watchin over me
Though I'm prone to doin wrong
I repent religiously hopin that the weak get strong
When the heat get's on
Hopin that the weak get strong
When the heat get's on
Ya know the street's different
Stays as it likes
Either headin into a storm
Ya in a storm
Or ya just got out of a storm
(yeah) think about it