These Hands Weren’t Meant For Us - Listener

These hands were strong once
They held my head and what's inside
I tried to train them to stop the shaking
But they wouldn't listen to these lies
There's something out there I promise
It's coming for all of us
And it is evil
And I have seen it
It takes life and devours trust
It's bad when I close them worse with my eyes open
I see it if I sleep
So I keep my mind blank
And think of bravery
Change and hope but I'm so weak
Please take me in like I'm family
I've been out for far too long
My stone hearts aching
But I am changing
Stay by me
Leave me alone
I'm changing
I hold my head to keep from shaking
My hands are full
But I'm not
I thought these hands were strong with how they used to hold the world
Then it slipped away
I couldn't keep it
And now nothing isn't blurred
But ever since the first time that I flew above the stars
Like a dragon into heaven trying to tiptoe past the guards
With bricks and bones
Blood and stones and skin holding it all loose
I take one last breath and don't think of death
That halo made a noose
And let's not speak of murder even if the motive is clear
Because death is sleep anyways
And I'm fine right here
I couldn't see what I was looking for
Didn't want to hear it
Trying to control everything I see
When all I could do is swim in it
Or drown or tread in these careless waters just to get by
And just getting by
Choking down every single ridiculous lie
Like an axe in the back
Like a coward or a hack
Now regret hates me
It's fear that saved me putting mountains in my path
These arms were strong once
They moved the ground to keep us safe
But they are crumbling
My fingers numbing
I'm not reaching out I'm pushing you away
Please trust it's for your well being
I don't want you here when I come down
So no words are spoken
With my eyes wide open
I'm all ready to be found
I'm changing
I hold my head to keep from shaking
My hands are full
But I'm not
I'm changing
I hold myself to keep from shaking
These hands are done
But I'm not
And I'm not full
But I'm not done either
Just trying to hear what I need to see
And if I see it I promise I'll let you hear it
And if you'll listen
Then I'm all ears
These hands weren't made for us
But they grab at every will we conjure up
My hands weren't built for me
But they still burn the ground enough
Acting like they want to be found
Just to go and hide again
These hands are all to blame
Tearing where it needs to mend
Each finger bent in shame
Knuckles every shade of white
Our hands are all the same
Over our face cover our eyes
My passports all worn out
If you need these hands they're all for you
I don't know what I want
But I know what I don't want to do