crawl through knives - In flames

[ti:The End]
[ar:Blue October]
[al:Approaching Normal]
[by:活在當下]
[00:01.12]Blue October - The End
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[00:09.11]  活在當下 制作
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[00:28.14]Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn, 
[00:30.76]Worms squeezing their way through my toes 
[00:33.16]Tonight that's how it goes. 
[00:34.90]I'm at your window kneeling quiet, 
[00:36.74]I thought at least I'd maybe try to get your head right 
[00:37.91]Get your heart right 
[00:39.65]“Let him go!” 
[00:41.12]
[00:41.68]Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floor 
[00:44.38]As he embraces every inch of you 
[00:46.59]The woman I adore. 
[00:48.21]I can't believe the way you're bending 
[00:50.04]Can't believe this neverending moaning asking him for more 
[00:53.47]I heard you begging him for more 
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[00:55.93]How far will I go 
[00:59.67]To make it feel right? “Come home” 
[01:03.03]I have to fix this on my own 
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[01:09.69]Replace my heart, 
[01:14.74]Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end 
[01:23.29]Replace my heart, 
[01:28.35]I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping…..end 
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[01:40.11]I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched her, 
[01:43.42]From her feet across her knees, inside her sweetest spot 
[01:45.95]he pleased and pleased her. 
[01:47.23]I turned around and tried to take control, 
[01:48.66]but no control was capable 
[01:50.76]It was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go. 
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[01:53.86]I squeezed the life into my brain 
[01:55.39]Like pushing knives into a vein 
[01:57.26]I've gotta get, I've gotta get, I said I've gotta get inside 
[02:00.18]So to the back window I crawl in silent standing in the darkness 
[02:03.61]Of my living room, my living room 
[02:05.28]This used to be my home 
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[03:47.41][02:07.88]How far will I go 
[03:51.15][02:11.74]To make it feel right? “Come home” 
[03:54.12][02:14.68]I'm moving forward to the bedroom door 
[03:58.85][02:19.36]
[02:20.00]Replace my heart 
[02:26.82]Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end 
[02:35.27]Replace my heart 
[02:40.06]I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping…end 
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[02:52.15]I turn the doorknob with two fingers to be slow 
[02:54.73]Enough to sneak into the room among the corner darkness gloom 
[02:58.44]I had to see this happening. 
[03:00.14]He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang 
[03:02.78]and bounced off every wooden walled room 
[03:05.68]And that's when all went silent blank except the color red 
[03:08.82]As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed 
[03:11.83]I said “I know I'm not allowed to be here. I just had to see 
[03:15.15]How good this new man really fucks you. 
[03:17.22]Cause you both been fucking me.” 
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[03:19.67]“So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pair 
[03:22.40]I tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stare 
[03:25.94]I don't want to alarm you, 
[03:27.33]but I figured we could end this in 
[03:28.95]what seems easy quick and painless 
[03:31.12]So I'll get down to business 
[03:33.08]I choose you first, there's a gun, its at your head 
[03:36.04]So laugh at me just one more time but keep your face inside the bed 
[03:39.45]You sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I've said.” 
[03:43.04]I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red 
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[03:59.64]Then the screaming oh the screaming 
[04:01.88]It's nice to see you scared 
[04:03.51]Of such a weak and stupid husband 
[04:05.17]Who knows you never really cared 
[04:06.83]I'll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head 
[04:10.07]Was all this worth it knowing u have just seconds left to live? 
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[04:13.57]Now think about your answer, laying face down on the bed 
[04:16.39]I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger and all I saw was red 
[04:19.80]I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back 
[04:23.20]Then placed the barrel in my mouth 
[04:25.11]All I saw was black.
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