Everyday(Explicit) - Plan B

Everyday (Explicit) - Plan B
Every morning when I wake
Every morning when I wake
This is my life everyday
This is my life everyday
I wake up in the morning
Notice something ain't right
'Coz although the sun is shinning there is no light
I open up my curtains wipe the sleep
From my eyes too tired to realize I've lost my sight
Blinded by my ignorance I prepare myself for the day
Thinking this sinking feeling will go away
As I set off on my track the little voice
In my head says turn back
But when I want to turn back it's too late
Darkness surrounds me drowning me in sorrow
'Coz I know today will be no different from tomorrow
Hope is quickly fading soon I'll be too far gone
For saving my soul will go and leave my body hollow
And still in the face of adversity
I search for an inner strength
Try and stand firm with both fists clenched
But I can't find my heart it's like the f**k
Things deserted me it used to be there
This makes no sense
So I pray to a God
That I'm not even sure if I believe in
To help me in my hour of need and keep me breathing
I pray to this God that created a place called Eden
A paradise to put Adam and Eve in
But I don't think He hears me speaking
I'm starting to weaken
Now I'm reaching for what's fake
Poisoning my body to escape
Suddenly I'm overwhelmed with optimism
My shoulders no longer feel the weight
Yeah life feels great
But it's fake
Every morning when I wake
Every morning when I wake
This is my life everyday
This is my life everyday
It's fake 'coz I know the smile
On my face is only there
'Coz I'm too intoxicated to care
That inside my soul I can't find no hope
Just a gaping whole where it used to be there
An amendable tear
That when I'm sober hurts more than I can bare
It just ain't fair
And soon I'll be back in normality
When the poison wears off and my whole
Bodies aching from the pain of reality
The pain of reality starts to grab at me
Love is a fallacy and I'm staring straight
At death as it tries take another stab at me
I'm down on my knees
And I'm begging
Someone hear me please answer my questions
Why is my life just one big deep depression
Is this God's way of teaching me a lesson
Forgive me Father for I have sinned
This is my confession
I do bad things and I don't know why I do them
I try to do good deeds but people see right through them
I can't get close to no one
'Coz they won't let me
How can I feel like a man
If they don't respect me
Is that my heart
I feel starting to sink
As the more I talk
I'm starting to think
That maybe I feel this
Way because of the mistakes
I've made and it ain't got
Sh*t to do with no one else
I can only blame myself
It's me who's bad for my health
And only I can rectify what is wrong in my life
If only I tried a little bit harder
It all comes down to a choice
What would I rather
Stay how I am and watch the days get darker
Or forgive myself
Get on with my life
And not look back after