La Noia - Monumentum

La Noia (那个女孩) - Monumentum
I feel this dazed by the nothing which
Is surrounding me that
If I went mad in this very moment
My own insanity wouldn't be but
An eternal sitting down
My eyes astounded
My mouth's opened
My hands hidden between my knees
Neither laughing or weeping
Nor even moving if not on compulsion
From the place where I'd be
I have no more vigour
To conceive any wish
Not even a deadly one
And not because I fear death
But because I no longer see
Any difference between death
And this life of mine
Where nobody comes on to relieve me
Not even the sorrow
This is the first time that tedium not only tires
And weighs down on me
It's also worrying and tearing me
Just like the strongest of pains
I've got so frightened by the vanity of things
And the condition of mankind
Death of every passion
As they're all dead
In my heart
That I'm going insane
Thinking that my despair itself
Isn't but nothing
Farewell